you will meet new people and have fun times with them. making friends will be fun they said. but nobody warned me about not getting too attached to people that then leaving hurts this much. people i love, people whom I call me family leave me all the fucking time. and i dont wanna sound any more articulate or smart about it. because this hurts. I never want people to leave. you know the people I'm talking about, talking to whom becomes a part of your life. part of your daily routine. which goes against all your career goals and all the study blocks you've put in your calendar because talking to them feels more real than any action might take for something long term. if anything it's not anyone else's fault but a really transparent look at how and what i prioritize things in my life. humans might have really wanted to communicate with humans that they derived an entire sophisticated system of language. it's really interesting that no matter the quality of life a person would lead all of us can be pretty sure that they'd know how to speak or communicate their thoughts to other human beings. connecting seems to be really important to all of us. we often connect through other people by sharing our experience of similar art forms we enjoy, sometimes we connect through shared experiences, sometimes we connect on similar trauma or beliefs we might hold. interesting stuff i know.